Coughed blood ytd then went to camp to see Medical Officer, referred me to Changi General Hosital. Suspected bronchitis. Luckily it's not, waited 3 plus hours for the entire procedure and got a 2 days MC to recuperate at home.

Feels like i'm getting weaker and weaker day by day. Things that i used to find it easy like pull ups, sprinting, walking long distance seem to be taking a toil on me. Sometimes you just feel like dying so that u will be relieved of all this kinda burden. Physical torment and emotional turmoiled when coupled together pose as a rather formidable opponent. Some things can never be forgotten because memories last for a lifetime. But i will display perseverance and emerge victor in this realm because nothing is in fact impossible. When you put your heart and soul into something, you will get it. I'm pretty sure of that. Love life and life will love you back. Love people and people will love you back.

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack.
If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough.