Gotten a new handphone 3 days ago. Quite a nice phone considering that it's a non-camera phone. Ate Aston's crispy fried chicken the day before. Somehow it has made its way into my list of kian's most coveted food. Haha. But need to cut down on the oily and carby stuffs. Almost eat fish and co for lunch today. But didn't wan to be extravagant so i ate yong tau foo instead. It's becoming like a battle between the trade-offs. Price versus quality. At this moment, the former comes of greater importance since my bank acc money has plummeted sharply ever since i entered NS. Another long day for me tmrw. Hopefully i'll have some decent company physically or on the phone. Or else I will be bored to death in SAFTI MI attending some SAF parade day. Oh well, clerks are usually targetted becos we hold the lowest positions and we are thought of as brainless. I shall not comment on that statement becos it is so not true. Shall start training up for army half marathon which includes a plan of running 10.5km 3 times a week or more. Getting lethargic after the 2nd attempt. Shall rest now. Yawns.


Memories keep surfacing hinting the impossibility of dismissing them.

It's so so difficult. Because everything that you want seems to be so near yet so far, so tangible yet so intangible. For a moment it seems like you have gotten it, then it slips through your fingers yet again. The harder it is to obtain it, the more i will cherish it. Therefore I will not give up.

Procrastination, indecisiveness and unpreparedness really irks me. But who am I to tell others to change huh. Anyway grouses aside, went shopping today! Watched a random R21 movie too. Super violent and gory, probabl will be my first and last R21 movie. Really gruesome. It's just as violent as saw but more explicit materials. Anyway that did not stop the hungry ghost in me. Went to eat at The Soup Spoon. The food is quite good and value for money. I think it ain't money that makes the world go round. Rather it is food that makes my world go round! Next week will be a rather busy week for me alr. It's funny how i treasure time better when i'm pressed for them and neglect the importance of time when it is present in abundance.

Why does love has to feel like a battlefield?

Sometimes being happy is not a matter of how rich you are, the materials that you possess or the achievements that you boast of. It can just be as simple as being with you.



fu^k this world..
Sometimes you just feel like breaking down and cry because the whole world seems to be against you.

Today's been a long and boring day. Fell asleep while reading public relations textbook. Decided to do something more novelish so i read some book on relationships. Plan failed, fell asleep again. Anyway something dramatic happened at my base. Some guy who went to butterfactory the day before contracted fever and was listed as a swine flu suspect. And he reported sick at the medical centre, the place where i work at la!!! That's like super scary. Pple donning their mask for the first time. I avoided the scene and went elsewhere until the ambulance came to fetch the guy to the hospital.

Went to gym during lunchtime as usual. Injured my leg the day before so it's purely arms training today. Quite a good stress/boredom reliever. Went to night lessons in the evening. Then I saw the notice which said that it was cancelled! IT's like WTH. Didn't even tell us b4hand or leave us a msg. Wasted my entire night away. In the end i spent my night walking ard j8, visiting the library as usual. To add on to my discontentment, some idiotic person placed an umbrella at my door. I didn't notice it and went to open the door and walk inside. Then the door slammed at my eyes. Luckily it is nothing serious or else I will end up like Louis Braille. Haix. What a series of unfortunate events taking place in a day. Hope tmrw will be better. I'm sure it will.

No one is able to change my future, only I myself hold the key to changing it.

Cycled 45km on sunday at paya lebar air base. Wasn't as hard as they claim it to be although the sweltering heat plus the traffic flow kinds of daunts people from enjoying the cycle. Nevertheless it was enjoyable considering that it is the first time i cycle for 2 hour plus continuously. It's gonna be army half marathon soon. Must begin my intensive weight-loss plus running regime. Anyway i'm stil stucked in my choice. NUS or NTU? perhaps the former sounds more appealing to me.

Choices are what made us uniquely humans. But now i rather not be presented with this freedom of choice cos I'm accepted into both NUS and NTU business and am now given the choice of getting to either business schools. Difficult choice huh. Opinions anyone? Deadline's monday! HELP!

Actually taking up business ain't a bad idea after all. Ok I do feel a little fickle-minded at times. Quite sick of hearing people telling me that taking up medicine is way out of the question because your grades are simply not up to that mark. But sometimes we shld just take positive criticisms as constructive feedback instead of dwelling upon it and thinking that the whole world is against u. This is the problem with our meritocratic society, we value grades too much and therefore neglect the feelings of others who are passionate about their ambitions but yet wielding the certificate which shows a poorer results and the marks of a gloomy future.

I do believe that life in singapore is indeed one that requires you to go against all odds. I'm really not going to bother about the opinions of people cos i alone dictate my own future and not my peers.

Anyway i'm sick of hearing army stories from people of all walks. I don't care whether you are an enlistee, recruit, private or even a general. Please spare me from your stories. I just wanna be a normal civilian.

I just wanna turn back time, back to the days in JC. With just a boo k on my left hand, a basketball on my right hand with a rainbow over my head.

Keep falling sick these few days. Sore eyes, Headache and diarrhoea. What's wrong with my immune system? Anyway Mizuno run was great! A run in the morning is indeed invigorating to the soul and the mind. However, the overall poor arrangement of the mizuno run is quite a letdown. Furthermore the uphill running and all is crazy. First time see so many pple walking in a race la. Had meatball marinara at subway with chan's family. Food was good and they were friendly as well. BBalled for 5 hours plus after that in the early afternoon. A period where most pros will not be ard. In the end, we just played against pple of a lower calibre. Quite fun though. this kind of bball bonding session makes me love bball even more! Super super tired now. Hopefully tmrw will be a short day for me. 1 more week to runway cycling! Maybe shld eat some buffet meal after that i hope. Haha.

To say that i love basketball is simply just an understatement.

I feel so far apart from you...



Draw close to me and I will draw close to you.

It's now or never. Seize it or u will lose it.


Whoever who loses their life for my sake will find it.

I feel very tired, making everyone ard me happy and convincing myself that i am happy. So tired of working everyday waking up so early to the grouses of my superiors. So tired of being exploited endlessly and still grudgingly accept their requests with a simple nod. I'm so tired of having to find something to do every week, everyday, every minute, every sec. I'm very tired of living the life that i'm living now. But i know i'm strong enough to handle this by myself. Soon all this will be over. And i shall rest in the House of the Lord forever.



Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I shall give you rest.
Matthew 11:28

Yeah, i will need it badly.

six juin 2009

Signed up for french lessons at another tuition centre Alliance Francais de Singapour which is supposedly more renowned! Going to have lots of projects and exams coming up shortly. Going to take my basic theory test soon too, the stepping stone to having my driving license. Life's quite hectic for me these few weeks and will not be any less easy for the upcoming months first. At least it beats the idea of doing nothing and rotting ard somewhere random. Anyway university's placing is more or less confirmed. But i shall not give up my dreams of being a doctor. Not for now maybe. Since i have the goal in mind, the problem now will be thinking of how to craft out a progress chart in order to make the goal tangible instead of remaining as an illusion. Up and on!



It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

Resolve to be a master of change rather than a victim of change. Yeah, it's time to brush aside all the past and adapt to the present. Regardless of the many trials that I have experienced so far, I will not be deterred from living my life to its fullest.



It is time...

Came across meaningful phrase while i was walking into MDIS. The greater the obstacle we are facing, the greater the glory in overcoming it. I guess it is time to step out of my comfort zone to face that obstacle so that I can bask in that glory when the time arrives.


Let your works so shine before men that they will see your deeds and praise our Father in Heaven.