Why am i always causing trouble to the people around me. I feel defeated and hopeless. He is right about that. Some people are born to be problem solvers and some people are born to be problem creators. I belong to the latter.

You are defeated if you do not get back on your feet after experiencing a small setback. My body is badly mangled by the impact of this setback, my fingers feel coarse and abrasive trying to push myself against the ground. My mind is spinning topsy turvy while trying to maintain a postive outlook at the impending disaster that is going to befall. My eyes can barely batter an eyelid and look beyond my circumstance after being knocked out in the previous round by the enemy. My lips and parched and torn despite drinking from the fountain filled with water.

How long more must I run this race? Will it end up a defeat or will I be able to touch the finishing line till I reach this fountain of living water? You know me best Lord. You know what is best for me. If it is your will, let it be done.