This week is a good week cos it's only a 2 day work week. It's gonna feel like CNY again. Extremely long weekends. But easter's coming! It will definitely be not just a period of information or entertainment, but a period of transformation!

Our impossibilities are God's opportunities. If God is able to raise Christ from the dead, what makes you think that He is unable to fulfil your dreams?

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.
Colossians 3:23

This is what keeps me going everyday of my life.

Feels good to play full-court bball again. Today's games didnt turn out to be as fun as expected due to the downpour. Suffered a sprained ankle also plus knocked out in the first round of basketball. Captain's ball was relatively easy though. Didn't see any serious competitors that can make my team work at 100 percent.

Anyway thousand apologies for the 2 girls who came but didn't manage to play. :( But lunch plus dessert & macdonalds was fun. I think I should hang out with people younger than me. Makes me feel younger cos I'm beginning to sense the generational gap between the going-to-hit 20 and those pple who are still schooling. haha.

I think I caught Lerae's eating disease. For the whole of tdy, I've been eating and thinking about food non-stop. The only way to stop this addiction is to sleep.Guess I need to start exercising again. Bball or jogging anyone?

Furthermore, I think I wanna aim for CFC. There has been no one of my vocation who got it. But I will be the first! I don't wanna settle for an ordinary transcript on my ORD cert. I want an extraordinary one!

The clock is ticking. I have 267 more days to redeem myself.

Why am i always causing trouble to the people around me. I feel defeated and hopeless. He is right about that. Some people are born to be problem solvers and some people are born to be problem creators. I belong to the latter.

You are defeated if you do not get back on your feet after experiencing a small setback. My body is badly mangled by the impact of this setback, my fingers feel coarse and abrasive trying to push myself against the ground. My mind is spinning topsy turvy while trying to maintain a postive outlook at the impending disaster that is going to befall. My eyes can barely batter an eyelid and look beyond my circumstance after being knocked out in the previous round by the enemy. My lips and parched and torn despite drinking from the fountain filled with water.

How long more must I run this race? Will it end up a defeat or will I be able to touch the finishing line till I reach this fountain of living water? You know me best Lord. You know what is best for me. If it is your will, let it be done.

Here I am Lord, use me.

Do not let this book of law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written on it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.
Jos hua 1:8

There is no easier way to becoming successful except to obey God's Word. :)

Think today's quite an interesting day. First time I got pumped 20 times in my entire military stint! Even a personnel who is excused from push ups. Why? Just because I accidentally called a WO by his name then the SSG claimed that I disrespect the WO. Hmm, this is the start of the many tests that God is giving me. I shall overcome it and forgive the SSG who thinks he is a big shot. Despite my forgiveness, I have no qualms about my hatred for the military way of functioning. Oh well, just my luck.

The decision is so tough to make. Lord guide me through this.

Looking at most of my juniors' results, all the As that they have achieved in their certificate, somehow I developed mixed feelings towards it. Definitely as the older person, I feel proud that they have achieved so many distinctions which will definitely aid their portfolio in applying for universities. However, I do admit that I feel a tinge of jealousy since their results are better than mine.

The Lord at this moment reminded me to get pass the stage of placing achievements and accolades above him. As i looked back at my past, I realised that through the major milestones in my life, it was Jesus who carried me on his blood-stained body reminding me "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you." When life seems to be so meaningless, when our achievements does not match with our expectations, we tend to blame God for failing to bless us or give us directions in life. We live in such a deplorable world, only learning how to take and never learning how to give in life. When was the last time, we cried a prayer of desperation, telling God that all we need is him. That even if God doesn't bless us, we are contented just to be in His presence.

God is Jehovah Jireh, which means "God is a provider". Even as we face crossroads of decisions, bad mistakes or downslopes in life, when God promises to take us to our destination, He will surprise us in many ways that we cannot think of. Who says that all roads does not lead to Rome. With God, as long as we have faith and we believe, no matter how badly situated we are, there is always a way.

Each time we fail, we become a stronger person when we bounce back from our failures. A great person is not one who never fails, but one who tries even harder in order to conquer their fear of failure.

Lord, please give me an idea of how much to tithe for my Arise and Build. I do not want to give out of my abundance but I wanna give an amount that will please you. Just like the widow who gave 2 copper coins, her only possession, so will I want to sacrifice an amount that will make is worthy and befitting of your status. Because a sacrifice is not called one if it isn't painful when the action is being carried out. Help me to find back my first love that I once had. The sheer amount of tears that I once shed when you came into my life and changed me forever.

I feel quite sick today. Having a splitting headache that is blurring my vision into kaleidoscopic images. Hopefully tmrw will be better.