Lord I know that by your blood, I am no longer bound to my past. I know that your love is so great that I can't help but to forgive those who has hurt or have attempted to hurt me. What would you do if you were in my position?

Everything is meaningless, the running of marathons, the agony of studying, the mastery of a new language, the initiation of a relationship, the accumulation of accolades, the conquering of one's fear and the amassing of wealth. It all seems purposeless and mundane, the constant chasing of things that will not last. Until I heard the greater calling from God that I finally understood the meaning of these pursuits. That all these are but tools used to glory Him and to proclaim His name high. The blood shed, the tear flowed, the fear expelled, the courage mustered drew me closer to God. That I am able to come close to him once again and declare that He is my father.

I have tried, cried and struggled but yet there seems to be no remedy. Everything seems impossible right now but I believe that God you are stil in control. Even if the whole world rejects me, I know that my God is still worthy to be praised.

Maybe I'm not that strong after all.

If only my heart was devoid of feelings, perhaps it wouldn't hurt this bad, not at all.

It hurts to love someone when we can't tell them what we really feel...because sometimes we get hurt without them knowing. We get jealous even if we have no right to feel that way. We want their time even if we are not in the position to demand for it. Although our hearts are breaking in silence, we still continue to love them because somehow in this hurtful love there is still hope of having simple moments with them even if it means being just a friend. ..

A struggle that I have to go through alone. Everything seems bleak, hope seems forlorn. You said that you will take this yoke away from me for this is too much for me to endure. You said that you will never leave nor forsake me but why am I left doubting your existence. Job said, when you have tested me, I shall shine forth as gold. Am I able to shine forth as gold too?