Had the most tiring weekend in my entire life. Yet I'm glad all these experiences during the past three days drew me closer to the house of God and to some people whom I rarely communicate with. The Ubin trip was definitely something that is worth more than the 13 bucks fare plus bicycle rental that we paid for. This is what a true Christian's life is about. To be rooted into God's family and to be a vessel of love to others. The anniversary dinner and the events and food lined out can be comparable to the term impeccable because it also brought us much closer as a family and treasure each other more. I really wanna thank God for people who prayed for my leg's recovery so that I can complete my Army Half marathon successfully. Despite the lack of sleep resulting in a deprivation of energy as well as an injured leg, I managed to complete in 1:43:41. (Although shy of my expected 1:30:00) But I can proudly declare that God is faithful, when we call out to Him, He will answer us and provide the solution for any difficult circumstance in life. For now, I shall not be anxious about anything but with prayer and petition, I will present my specific request to God, who will then grant me during his appointed time. :)

I can't even muster the courage to smile and think positively anymore.

The larger the circle of light becomes, the greater the perimeter of darkness around it.

As I was praying, God gave me a verse. James 1:22 But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.

It makes me no different from the world if I'm able to achieve what others expect of me. But being a Christian means that I have a Saviour who has already given me the victories and breakthroughs that I need in this lifetime to achieve something even greater than what I can imagine. If the word says that I am suppose to be the head and not the tail in every aspect of my life, who is able to tell me that I am suppose to be otherwise.If the word tells me to run in such a way that I may obtain the crown, who is to say that I am unable to obtain it.

Today I'm leaving all my troubles behind. I know that this emotional barrier is incapacitating my abilities to go all out for Christ. If it is not your will for it to be taken away, then let me overcome it. I know that this is just the start of your many great plans for me in this lifetime. Give me the provision to realize this vision. I'm trusting and thanking you for the start of something new.

It's hard to maintain this positive demeanour all the time.

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesnt diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

The small sharing session today kind of set me thinking about it. Am i being foolhardy to rush into it. People tend to say that everyone who goes through that process will eventually end up even more sunken. But I'm no neophyte in this area, I know it is within my capability.