After making the prayer to change myself from the inside out, I'm back to my own old self again. It's too difficult to control my temper, to forgive the people in my camp, to not judging others and to not wishing the worst of others, which in short cursing others. I do not wanna seek to be informed about Jesus's message about the gospel, the promise of a new lease of life. But i wanna be transformed by the living Word. It's no longer a journey that I can bring others along with me, it's a journey that I have to go through by myself. Alone yet armed with God's Word. For when I am weak then I am strong. If Jesus can go through 40 days and 40 nights in the desert without food and water.so can I go through 469 more days. What is my pain compared to the afflictions that Jesus went through.

Romans 8:38-39
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.



Help me to learn to forgive others, just as how you have forgiven me. Help me to not judge others but rather look at the beauty of your creation and marvel in awe of it. Be with me as I go through this 469 more rough days to come. Nothing beats knowing that you are with me, carrying me through this desert storm, leaving behind your set of fooprint as I look back at my life in my last breath. Amen

Apart from me, you can do nothing.

Sometimes you have to be thick-skinned and willing to go against the odds to succeed. The more someone tells you u can't, the more u have to prove him wrong. Thomas Edison tried 10,000 ways before succeeding in inventing the light bulb. When questioned, he said that he only tried 9,999 ways that did not work. Those were not failures, but merely stepping stones required to be present in order to succeed. If Thomas Edison can do it, I, Kian Hwee, can also do it.

Help me to remember Lord, that nothing is going to happen today that you and I can't handle.

I officially declare that I suck in driving. That's a bad news. On the flipside, I got an A and a B for my mass comm module. Not bad considering that I was sick for the whole of the exam week plus i studied last minute. 4 more modules to go before graduation project which is similar to another PW.... Life's getting packed with activities. 1 more month to Korea. 474 more days to ORD... Ok forget my last sentence. ZZZzz

Went to city harvest church today! Felt refreshed after missing out God's word for very long. Pastor Kong spoke about the story of David and Goliath. Everyone will face a "Goliath" one way or another in our life. But are we ready to brace ourselves for the challenge and hurl the stone at goliath?

1) The stone of the past.

God uses our painful past in order to build a backbone of steel in us so that we will be courageous and not lacking in faith. A good memory will build a hero out of us.

2) The stone of prayer.

Our prayer will be tested with time. Are we ready to arm ourselves with prayers to overcome the "Goliath" in our lives?

3) The stone of priority.

Matthew 6:33 "First seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well."

4) The stone of passion.

Are we really passionate for the cause of God? Because God will invest on the one with passion. If we stay on fire for God, we will never lose track of our objectives.

5) The stone of persistence.

Sometimes we just have to keep getting up and up and up after failures in order to be a giant slayer.

Armed with these five stones. Are you ready to meet the Goliath in your life?

Today's quite a boring day. No gym, not enough sleep, time seems to come to a standstill. But alright, driving was quite interesting. My first lesson wasn't that bad after all. Another 17 lessons to look forward to. It's another month before I head to Korea. Can't wait to leave this dreaded place. Even for a moment. Yeah, I can last through for now. I hope. French exams this saturday. I am so dead I think. Anyone able to revise with me?